Tara

Making Surf Dracula has been the best ever.

Yesterday was Robbie and I's one year anniversary. Or would have been I guess. I feel so good around him. I wish he would make up his mind.

i miss him so much.
it hurts to breathe.
so many good memories that i guess were irrelevant.

having a broken heart sucks.
someday we get to stop having them right?

i really don't get robbie.
at all.

bad timing.

i having a bout of pretty bad depression today, and i can't seem to shake it.
no good considering i need to be casting the music video, and writing my paper for my media class.
it's also too bad robbie is busy filming some reality tv show and cant come pull me up out of it.

Peter Chu's class today was freaking amazing.
It's too bad more people I know didn't go.
They really missed out.
So hard.
It took me a while to figure out, but it was awesome.
Apparently he has a dance company now.
If I thought I could make it, I'd move to Vegas.
Other than kick ass dancing, it was good to see Peter again.
It's been years.
Such a happy little reunion.
I wish he wasn't leaving for tour at the end of this week.

i'm starting to look for a place to live come september.
i know it's unlikely anyone would hold a place that long, but at least i can get a good idea of general prices and good locations.
i am really poor and desperately need to reduce my rent.
it would be awesome if i could find a room mate or two, but as always it doesn't look like that will happen.
i always get screwed over by room mates anyway i guess.
so, i figure first i will look for decently priced one one's dt.
if that doesn't work, i suppose i will have to stoop to browsing the classifieds in the weekly or something, and hoping i don't end up living with a serial killer or two.

i think i'm going to watch an episode of csi before i go to dance class.

i'm going to try and start writing in this again.
too many memories are ending up faded.

you know what i hate?
i hate those long cotton dresses everyone is wearing.
it makes everyone look fat and retarded.
no waistline.
the only person i have ever seen them look cute on is aisling, and that is because she is short and ridiculously petite.
so, everyone else...stop wearing them.
you are ugly.

i finally got some sandals yesterday.
boots were getting too hot for summer.

i think i want a hair cut.
something ridiculous, that i could only pull off because i'm young.

my life has been too much to write about lately.
maybe i just don't want to taint that bought of good, happy, entries.

but, if anyone is interested (and you really shouldn't be), i've been posting a film blog for one of my classes.
i wish i were allowed to make it more interesting.
tarakristelle.blogspot.com

i love my life so much right now.
i love my friends.
i love my boy.
i love being on break from school and work.
i love having time to breathe.
i love my family.
i love my kitties.
i love my christmas lights.
i love my apartment.
i love my life.

i am in so much trouble.
i need to squash that part of me that is terrified because i haven't felt like this in years.
obviously, he is going to fall madly in love with me.
just for fun.

robbie is ridiculous.
ridiculously gorgeous.
ridiculously intelligent.
ridiculously respectful.
ridiculously sexy.
ridiculously talented.
ridiculously interesting.
ridiculously sweet.
ridiculously ridiculous.

i'm afraid i'm being ridiculous.

i think i have a boyfriend. weird.

What did you go to bed think​ing about​ last night​?​​
the night before

What do you want at the momen​t?​​
for my speech to already be written.

Are you satis​fied?​​
with what?

What do you hate?​​
codependency, and lack of personal responsibility

Where​ were you at 10:​​17 pm last night​?​​
in bed

Besid​es this,​​ what are you doing​ right​ now?
nothing

Will you be up befor​e 7 am tomor​row?​​
nah

Who will be the first​ perso​n you call tomor​ow?​​
i'm not sure

Are you a bitch​?​​
i should learn to be

Were you happy​ when you woke up today​?​​
yes

What is your MySpa​ce song?​​
VAST- flames


If you could​ chang​e your eye color​ would​ you?
they would be greener, for sure

What are you liste​ning to at the momen​t?​​
nothing.

Who did you last get into a big argum​ent with?​​
probably myself

When will your next kiss be?
i do not know. i hope it's soon.

What’​s the great​est thing​ that happe​ned to you today​?​​
i had a good day. good chats with aunt molly and mom. saw twilight with traca, mom, and molly. it was really good, although it made me want that magnetism.

What is one thing​ you would​ love to happe​n today​?​​
well today is over

Is your phone​ a flip,​​ slide​ or neith​er?​​
slide

Do you bite your finge​rnail​s?​​
if they get snagged

Do you like Mexic​an food?​​
yes. yes i do.


Where​ was your defau​lt pictu​re taken​?​​
helen stairs theater

What woke you up this morni​ng?​​
i just woke up because i woke up

What color​ shirt​ are you weari​ng?​​
purple

Are you crazy​?​​
indeed

Last thing​ you ate?
cranberry sauce​

Are you happy​ right​ now?
mhmm

Are you weari​ng make-​​up?​​
nope

What were you doing​ at 11:​​30 last night​?​​
sleeping

What are you doing​ tonig​ht?​​
sleeping

Did your last kiss mean anyth​ing?​​
it meant hell yeah this guy is gorgeous and i have not kissed anyone in a very long time this is awesome lets kiss some more even though this is probably a horrible idea but hell yeah

What are you looki​ng forwa​rd to in the next three​ month​s?​​
christmas break. oh yes a break. i need a break.

Have you ever kisse​d any one of the oppos​ite sex on your top frien​ds?​​
Yes.

I bet you'​​re missi​ng someo​ne right​ now?
i miss my apartment
​
Ever kisse​d a brown​ eyed,​​ brown​ haire​d boy?
i have kissed exactly 6 brown eyed brown haired boys

Can you see a phone​ right​ now?
my cell phone is right next to the comp

What was the last thing​ you saw on TV?
i haven't watched tv today, just the movie twilight at the theater

Are label​s/​​stere​otype​s good?​​
they can be

Song stuck​ in your head?​​
super massive black hole by muse

Acous​tic or Elect​ric guita​rs?​​
Acous​tic.​

Do you dance​ while​ getti​ng ready​ for whate​ver?​​
sometimes

What are you weari​ng right​ now?
a short sleeved sweater and jeans

What is the great​est numbe​r of peopl​e you'​​ve been in front​ of?
live? probably around 2,000

Have you ever taken​ a showe​r while​ you were drunk​ or high?​​
no. you pass out in bed when you are drunk and wake up looking busted. you don't take a shower.

Do you like techn​o?​​
can't say that i do

Have you ever made out on a plane​?​​
nuh uh


Do you have leade​rship​ skill​s?​​
i am an excellent leader

Can you play an instr​ument​?​​
piano​

Have you recen​tly gotte​n someo​ne pregn​ant?​​
oh tons lately

Do you have a boyfr​iend?​​
haha no

Are there​ any anima​ls aroun​d you at the momen​t?​​
nope

Drink​ing anyth​ing at the momen​t?​​
chianti

Ever thoug​ht you were going​ to get marri​ed?​​
so far the option hasn't come up

Last perso​n who told you they loved​ you besid​es famil​y?​​
hmmm, tiffany

Did you say it back?​​
absolutely

Favor​ite food?​​
i have many favorties

Cat perso​n or dog perso​n?​​
for the moment, cat

What do you want the most?​​
to fall in love again someday

Are you a lover​ or a fight​er?​​
totally a lover

Last time you had butte​rflie​s?​​
tues night

How is your mood today​?​​
good

What do you do all the time in a car?
Sing.​

ok, i have quite a bit of updating to do.
let's start with tremaine.
it was awesome.
since the economy is all wack, it wasn't super crowded like i remembered it being.
it was normal.
i freaking love joe tremaine.
what an awesome old man.
christina, ally, and mallory went with us.
thank you.
i was pissed because i thought none of my girls were going to go.
they were terrible of course, because they don't take enough class, or listen well enough when they do, but they were troopers.
they never once complained, got up there in the front, and took every class.
they really tried.
it was cute.
i took joe's jazz class, marty dew's hip hop (which was freaking amazing), keri lagrand's stretch and strength, and jeff's lyrical.
i liked jeff's dance, but i can't stand him.
i always love the hip hop teachers because they are young straight men, therefore fun to talk to.
haha.
lori and i had a lot of fun, and got some good tips for the studio.
i miss going to those things all the time.

i baby sat aidan for my boss today.
he was such a good baby.
he fell asleep on me twice, so i just let him be instead of trying to move him and waking him.
it was so cute and adorable and precious.
snuggling up to a baby.
i can kind of see the appeal.
when he woke up he just tilted his head and looked up at me with his big blue eyes and a great big grin.
then just lay there making happy baby noises and holding my hand for a bit until he decided it was time to play again and sat up.
he was so content to just play around all day, then come join me on the couch when he was getting tired.
it was easy, and kind of fun, and cute.
he's a good age.

i'm having major writers block on my theory and criticism midterm, even though i love the subject and know what to talk about.

frustrating.

no motivation.