Does She Love You?

like_i_do @ 2009-11-26T18:48:00

2009-11-26T23:42:59Z

Making Surf Dracula has been the best ever.

Yesterday was Robbie and I's one year anniversary. Or would have been I guess. I feel so good around him. I wish he would make up his mind.

like_i_do @ 2009-10-25T22:28:00

2009-10-26T02:24:53Z

i miss him so much.
it hurts to breathe.
so many good memories that i guess were irrelevant.

like_i_do @ 2009-09-20T16:14:00

2009-09-20T20:11:38Z

having a broken heart sucks.
someday we get to stop having them right?

like_i_do @ 2009-09-13T21:59:00

2009-09-14T01:56:33Z

i really don't get robbie.
at all.

of course

2009-08-01T13:34:55Z

bad timing.

like_i_do @ 2009-07-29T20:16:00

2009-07-30T00:16:13Z

i having a bout of pretty bad depression today, and i can't seem to shake it.
no good considering i need to be casting the music video, and writing my paper for my media class.
it's also too bad robbie is busy filming some reality tv show and cant come pull me up out of it.

Peter Chu

2009-06-23T23:33:23Z

Peter Chu's class today was freaking amazing.
It's too bad more people I know didn't go.
They really missed out.
So hard.
It took me a while to figure out, but it was awesome.
Apparently he has a dance company now.
If I thought I could make it, I'd move to Vegas.
Other than kick ass dancing, it was good to see Peter again.
It's been years.
Such a happy little reunion.
I wish he wasn't leaving for tour at the end of this week.

new place

2009-06-22T01:49:05Z

i'm starting to look for a place to live come september.
i know it's unlikely anyone would hold a place that long, but at least i can get a good idea of general prices and good locations.
i am really poor and desperately need to reduce my rent.
it would be awesome if i could find a room mate or two, but as always it doesn't look like that will happen.
i always get screwed over by room mates anyway i guess.
so, i figure first i will look for decently priced one one's dt.
if that doesn't work, i suppose i will have to stoop to browsing the classifieds in the weekly or something, and hoping i don't end up living with a serial killer or two.

like_i_do @ 2009-06-18T18:49:00

2009-06-18T22:49:37Z

i think i'm going to watch an episode of csi before i go to dance class.

like_i_do @ 2009-06-07T16:04:00

2009-06-07T20:03:54Z

i'm going to try and start writing in this again.
too many memories are ending up faded.

fashion?

2009-05-14T15:55:01Z

you know what i hate?
i hate those long cotton dresses everyone is wearing.
it makes everyone look fat and retarded.
no waistline.
the only person i have ever seen them look cute on is aisling, and that is because she is short and ridiculously petite.
so, everyone else...stop wearing them.
you are ugly.

i finally got some sandals yesterday.
boots were getting too hot for summer.

i think i want a hair cut.
something ridiculous, that i could only pull off because i'm young.

ignore

2009-02-11T16:18:11Z

my life has been too much to write about lately.
maybe i just don't want to taint that bought of good, happy, entries.

but, if anyone is interested (and you really shouldn't be), i've been posting a film blog for one of my classes.
i wish i were allowed to make it more interesting.
tarakristelle.blogspot.com

yes

2008-12-28T07:34:27Z

i love my life so much right now.
i love my friends.
i love my boy.
i love being on break from school and work.
i love having time to breathe.
i love my family.
i love my kitties.
i love my christmas lights.
i love my apartment.
i love my life.

innocence would be great right now.

2008-12-11T15:51:17Z

i am in so much trouble.
i need to squash that part of me that is terrified because i haven't felt like this in years.
obviously, he is going to fall madly in love with me.
just for fun.

ridiculous

2008-12-09T20:47:15Z

robbie is ridiculous.
ridiculously gorgeous.
ridiculously intelligent.
ridiculously respectful.
ridiculously sexy.
ridiculously talented.
ridiculously interesting.
ridiculously sweet.
ridiculously ridiculous.

i'm afraid i'm being ridiculous.

like_i_do @ 2008-12-06T13:05:00

2008-12-06T18:00:31Z

i think i have a boyfriend. weird.

bored survey

2008-11-28T03:10:15Z

What did you go to bed thinking about last night?
the night before

What do you want at the moment?
for my speech to already be written.

Are you satisfied?
with what?

What do you hate?
codependency, and lack of personal responsibility

Where were you at 10:17 pm last night?
in bed

Besides this, what are you doing right now?
nothing

Will you be up before 7 am tomorrow?
nah

Who will be the first person you call tomorow?
i'm not sure

Are you a bitch?
i should learn to be

Were you happy when you woke up today?
yes

What is your MySpace song?
VAST- flames

If you could change your eye color would you?
they would be greener, for sure

What are you listening to at the moment?
nothing.

Who did you last get into a big argument with?
probably myself

When will your next kiss be?
i do not know. i hope it's soon.

What’s the greatest thing that happened to you today?
i had a good day. good chats with aunt molly and mom. saw twilight with traca, mom, and molly. it was really good, although it made me want that magnetism.

What is one thing you would love to happen today?
well today is over

Is your phone a flip, slide or neither?
slide

Do you bite your fingernails?
if they get snagged

Do you like Mexican food?
yes. yes i do.

Where was your default picture taken?
helen stairs theater

What woke you up this morning?
i just woke up because i woke up

What color shirt are you wearing?
purple

Are you crazy?
indeed

Last thing you ate?
cranberry sauce

Are you happy right now?
mhmm

Are you wearing make-up?
nope

What were you doing at 11:30 last night?
sleeping

What are you doing tonight?
sleeping

Did your last kiss mean anything?
it meant hell yeah this guy is gorgeous and i have not kissed anyone in a very long time this is awesome lets kiss some more even though this is probably a horrible idea but hell yeah

What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
christmas break. oh yes a break. i need a break.

Have you ever kissed any one of the opposite sex on your top friends?
Yes.

I bet you're missing someone right now?
i miss my apartment

Ever kissed a brown eyed, brown haired boy?
i have kissed exactly 6 brown eyed brown haired boys

Can you see a phone right now?
my cell phone is right next to the comp

What was the last thing you saw on TV?
i haven't watched tv today, just the movie twilight at the theater

Are labels/stereotypes good?
they can be

Song stuck in your head?
super massive black hole by muse

Acoustic or Electric guitars?
Acoustic.

Do you dance while getting ready for whatever?
sometimes

What are you wearing right now?
a short sleeved sweater and jeans

What is the greatest number of people you've been in front of?
live? probably around 2,000

Have you ever taken a shower while you were drunk or high?
no. you pass out in bed when you are drunk and wake up looking busted. you don't take a shower.

Do you like techno?
can't say that i do

Have you ever made out on a plane?
nuh uh

Do you have leadership skills?
i am an excellent leader

Can you play an instrument?
piano

Have you recently gotten someone pregnant?
oh tons lately

Do you have a boyfriend?
haha no

Are there any animals around you at the moment?
nope

Drinking anything at the moment?
chianti

Ever thought you were going to get married?
so far the option hasn't come up

Last person who told you they loved you besides family?
hmmm, tiffany

Did you say it back?
absolutely

Favorite food?
i have many favorties

Cat person or dog person?
for the moment, cat

What do you want the most?
to fall in love again someday

Are you a lover or a fighter?
totally a lover

Last time you had butterflies?
tues night

How is your mood today?
good

What do you do all the time in a car?
Sing.

tremaine

2008-11-26T15:54:23Z

ok, i have quite a bit of updating to do.
let's start with tremaine.
it was awesome.
since the economy is all wack, it wasn't super crowded like i remembered it being.
it was normal.
i freaking love joe tremaine.
what an awesome old man.
christina, ally, and mallory went with us.
thank you.
i was pissed because i thought none of my girls were going to go.
they were terrible of course, because they don't take enough class, or listen well enough when they do, but they were troopers.
they never once complained, got up there in the front, and took every class.
they really tried.
it was cute.
i took joe's jazz class, marty dew's hip hop (which was freaking amazing), keri lagrand's stretch and strength, and jeff's lyrical.
i liked jeff's dance, but i can't stand him.
i always love the hip hop teachers because they are young straight men, therefore fun to talk to.
haha.
lori and i had a lot of fun, and got some good tips for the studio.
i miss going to those things all the time.

baby is sitting in my lap

2008-10-17T02:15:41Z

i baby sat aidan for my boss today.
he was such a good baby.
he fell asleep on me twice, so i just let him be instead of trying to move him and waking him.
it was so cute and adorable and precious.
snuggling up to a baby.
i can kind of see the appeal.
when he woke up he just tilted his head and looked up at me with his big blue eyes and a great big grin.
then just lay there making happy baby noises and holding my hand for a bit until he decided it was time to play again and sat up.
he was so content to just play around all day, then come join me on the couch when he was getting tired.
it was easy, and kind of fun, and cute.
he's a good age.

called out of work

2008-10-13T20:17:22Z

i'm having major writers block on my theory and criticism midterm, even though i love the subject and know what to talk about.

frustrating.

no motivation.

ruining my life

2008-10-12T02:01:13Z

i'm sick, disabled, or at the very least not normal.
i hate my life.
just when i'd finally gotten comfortable and happy.
everything is ruled by an anxious knot in my stomach and loneliness.
it seems that way right now anyway.

fall sememster. ready, go!

2008-09-29T02:53:08Z

school, work, company, homework.
repeat.
i manage time well, and stress poorly.
it's a bit counter productive.

i love my new place.
i'm finally kind of settled.
most things have found a place, and it's nice and clean, and pretty.
alicia is going to move in with me this friday so we can save money.
that should be exciting, except for her little yippie chihuahua.
that might be kind of annoying.
mister is going to hate it.

i get free cable this month.
i am in heaven.
falling asleep at night is so much easier.
it's going to be so sad when i have to tell them to come pick up their beautiful cable box.

week

2008-07-28T18:51:46Z

so, i did learn a new song on piano.
apologize, by onerepublic.
i don't know if i like that whimsical choice.
i can't sing that song so well.
not my best range.
it's been fun anyway though.

i started sewing my shirt for drugs in untold.
it's been a disaster.
for one thing, my body is strange, and hard to sew for.
i'm too hour glass, which i know is a good thing, but it just sucks for clothes.
i'll probably end up making something really simple in the end.
also, baby is constantly fucking with the thread while i'm sewing and i keep having to start and stop and such, which doesn't make for the best sewing.

i met this guy chris on thursday at bbq.
he is crazy, and funny, and witty, and charming.
i can't even relay the crazy things he's always saying or doing.
kinda like jacob morton, but more so.
anyway, he's been really nice, and really persistent.
we had a date on saturday and it was lots of fun.
jo and tiff love him, but i'm still not so sure about the whole thing.
we'll see.

killing 5 minutes

2008-07-24T04:14:39Z

i really wish my back would stop bugging me.
i don't like my movement being hindered.
i've probably been moving too much lately, because i took it easy for a month, and it started to drive me crazy.
i should stop before i really injure myself.

tonight at work was lyrical night.
the little girls were funny.
they can't really understand the concept yet, so we did ballet the first half, and a cheesy lyrical ballet the second half.
for my teens i ended up choreographing a combo to "apologize" by one republic.
it was lots of fun to do.
i really liked it.
i might use it again sometime.
it was very harsh on my back though, since i wasn't very conservative with the choreography.
or maybe i'm just sore because i've been dancing for the past 4 days straight.

i am bored.
i'd been really good about occupying myself.
til this week.
i'm starting to fail.
maybe i'll look for a new song to learn on piano.
that's how i occupied my time last summer.

cats have done my sleeping for me

2008-07-21T09:48:21Z

it's 5:38 in the morning and i still haven't gone to sleep.
i've just been laying in bed for hours and hours, watching season 2 of dexter to pass the time.
i haven't had insomnia like this in forever and ever.
i guess it's cause i'm on my period.
i always have a bit of trouble sleeping around it.
i can't really think of what else it might be.
back in the day i always knew why i couldn't sleep.
stress, anxiety, racing thoughts, depression, heartbreak, loneliness, excitement.
to not really have a reason is strange.
i'm tired, but i'm not.
a familiar problem that feels completely foreign to me tonight.
it's incredibly annoying.
i can't even think of anything i want to write about to pass the time.

hmm.
my cats are awesome.
i wish i had the energy to take and upload pictures of them for this post.
though i probably don't remember how to post pictures.
since i'm sitting to write this, mister has moved from the corner of my bed to stretch across my pillow.
he's the cutest fucking thing ever right now.
looking at me with his big pretty eyes.
baby is m.i.a.
i think she left the bed for the living room.
which is not exciting because it leaves me no story to share right now.